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    Security to me includes a myriad of things.  My family keeps me strong and grounded when life becomes chaotic. I have seen people that hardly have a family, and I wish I could fix that for them.  If everyone could feel as secure as I do with my family the world would be a better place.
    Of course, when the house is erupting in chaos I find my security in my friends.  I feel secure with those closest to me because I know that, regardless of an conflicts in our relationship, I love them at the end of every day. I feel secure knowing that that won't change easily. I can turn to them for laughter or to fall apart. They help me pick up the scattered pieces and put myself back together. As the pieces are picked up, they secure a place in my heart that cannot be replaced--even by an insane fight or hundreds of miles.
    My books make me feel secure too. There are not many material things surrounding me that I actually need. My books have helped shape my character.  You need not learn all your lessons from adults, friends, or any living person. Some of the most important values in my life have manifested from a character in a book. Harry Potter taught me the importance of bravery in the face of fear. Daniel Sempere (The Shadow of the Wind) put into words how I feel about books. He also showed an undying loyalty to his friends and family. Liesel Meminger (The Book Thief) did not let potential danger get in the way of her thirst for knowledge. Furthermore, she understood the importance of words and how powerful a weapon they can be.  When I need to escape my reality I know I can enjoy another person's between the pages of a good book.
    A very small part of my security is my job. Money runs this world so I suppose having a job makes life a  bit easier.
    Finally, music. Lyrics and catchy tunes speak to me. Music can make or break a mood. What song do you wake up to? It could set the tone for the rest of your day. Right now I'm caught on Mumford and Sons as well as Jack's Mannequin. Just listen. Get lost in their voices, their words, their instruments. Let it change you. Don't forget to look everywhere for new stuff. Those musicians have a way with words and wisdom.


I am always looking for change in life, but the people, books and music that keep me grounded are always there. Those aspects are what keep me secure when life is spinning out of control.

Over and out.

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Running, running from it all.  I don't mean that I slapped on my action slacks and ran a few miles. As refreshing as that can be, I mean that my mind is running. It is swiftly moving from one thought and emotion to the next. I want to laugh, but I want to scream. I want something in life to make sense.

These are relatively new ideas. In the past I asked myself why something couldn't be different from reality, but I didn't dwell on it. I needed to live a little more, experience a little more, and run into a couple obstacles. I came up with this:
a) There are few people in this world you can trust. When you find those people hang on.  When I meet someone, I can usually tell if they will be in my life for awhile, but I still ease into the relationship.
b) Nobody cares about your problems so much that they want to hear about them 24/7. By practicing self-control in this department you will find yourself looking inwards to find the answers.
c) That brings me to (c). You hold the answers to your problems. Sure, you can seek advice from others as a booster, but eventually you will have to face yourself.  When you dig deep enough you will be surprised by what is there. It takes a lot to realize that you do have the answers because it is human nature to second guess yourself.
d) You will find love. It won't fall into your lap.  Do not always look for it. Let yourself live, and come to terms with who you are. As they all say-you must love yourself before you love others.  Confidence is so beautiful and others will see that glow.

Okay, cliches over. I guess the conclusions I have come to are really nothing you haven't heard before. It's one thing to read such thoughts, it's another thing to practice them. You must coach yourself to guide yourself. Nothing worth having comes easily (last cliche!) so work at what you love. Embrace who and what you have rather than strive for what is not there. You can be happy the majority of the time if you just learn to listen to others but most importantly to yourself.

Enough about me. Let me know your thoughts or what conclusions you have come to in life.

Over and out.