Here's my obligatory "New Year" blog entry.
Don't worry, I will list only one resolution.
2012 resolution:
Live for myself and grow through my choices.
It has taken me years to really confront the fact that, besides family, rarely does anyone stay in your life permanently. I have myself and my goals, and that is what matters. I love to help people and to have a good time, but I know that I need to live my dreams. Even though that will take a lot of work and patience, I finally am letting go of my qualms. I don't want to be tied down when I can so easily go in any direction I want. I have found that money is but a thing that I have to work hard for but cannot get hung up on. The security of routine is no longer comforting because there is something missing. That something is risk, an adventure, something life changing. Life is full of disappointments and I will no doubt encounter those as I make my way into the world. Now is what matters though. Now is the time to educate and experience. Now is the time to throw away all the frustrating thoughts and things holding me back. Now is the time to live life for me. It sounds selfish, and really it is, but not entirely.
Here's what I see when I conceptualize living life for the betterment of me:
1) Gaining experience in my field of choice. I have the odds against me with my college major, but that doesn't mean I can't succeed. It's time for creativity and risks to catapult me into the future.
2) Experiencing the world. I WILL go to Ireland because that is also a dream. I have to do it when I'm young and when a program is available for me to take advantage of.
3) Having the best times with the ones I love. I want to laugh every day and continue to feel so blessed that I have the best friends I could ask for. Sure, there are arguments and pitfalls, but I know that they will always be there for me--even if I'm thousands of miles away.
4) Working on my physical appearance so I stay in tip-top shape.
5) Respecting and loving myself wholeheartedly to create a more positive attitude.
6) READ. LOTS.
7) Not being afraid to be a little (or a lot) bit quirky. I mean, that's who I am. :)
I hope everyone had an amazing New Year and can stay committed to whatever resolution you made.
"you don't need planning permission to build castles in the sky"
over and out.
