I'm not really a confrontational person, and sometimes my reactions are a little delayed. I often get caught up in a moment, any moment really, without reflecting too closely--until afterwards. Lately, my life has been full of laughter, smiles, beautiful people, and a realization that my world is aligning. As the cliche states though, nothing is ever perfect. I have found encroachments of negativity that, though I try to suppress or write off, continue to badger me. Apparently the time has come to challenge my laid back demeanor. After much contemplation, and serious talks with a good friend, I realize now that it's time to let go.
There are people that have touched my life in so many ways over time but have now been proving difficult to approach. In fact, it hurts me to realize that I have to distance myself a little so I don't get hurt. Insults, no matter how witty you try to play them off as, upset me. Sometimes I don't fully react until I am removed from the scene and pondering my time spent with you. I can't handle your selfishness, and I can't handle your underhanded insults about me that, though you may find funny, I find less than amusing. I don't need a sense of humor, just a little respect.
I am both sorry and thankful that I have come to these conclusions. Given time, I'm sure I will work through this, but for now the process of letting go has begun.
[To those reading this, I apologize for the constant use of second person. I don't want to name names, but I did need to get this out.]
