A return to the past

I wrote this in the "notes" section on Facebook in response to a prompt about a year ago. I just recently heard someone say they gave their whole heart to one other person and yada yada yada. SO, I remembered this and wanted to share it on my real life blog as opposed to the flimsy Facebook notes. Plus, I'm feeling narcissistic enough to believe that those that have read it already will actually want to read it again ;)  Thanks all!

Name something you gave away that can never be replaced. 

I first read this question about 2 months ago. I turned the idea over in my mind for a long time, often at random times. Certainly it was nothing material. I could give my iPod touch away and get another. True, it wouldn't be the exact one I had, but I can replace it. I can replace just about anything material-aside from the quilts and blankets made for me by grandma. Trust me, I haven't lost those. So I turned to the less materialistic side of life. What did I come up with?

I gave away my heart, and it cannot be replaced. 

I don't have some sob story about a guy ripping my heart out and stomping on it. Yes my heart has hurt, it has been bent. It has not been broken though. When I say I gave my heart away it means that as I have grown, bits of my heart have been taken, changed, and my original heart cannot be replaced.  My family, my best friend, the regulars at work, my coworkers, my ex-boyfriends, my pets and ALL my friends have taken bits of my heart and made their impression. My heart is a mosaic of people who have moved me, taught me, laughed with me, and hurt me. As memories take over I feel a twinge in the part of my heart where that memory was made and who was there. It's hard for me to believe that a person can give their entire heart to one other person because there is more than one person you love in life.  The cliche line that "I gave my whole heart to you" (generally said to a lover) seems a little overwhelming and, quite frankly, sad. Your heart should be shared with everyone who loves you, cares for you and would never give up on you. When you look back on your life, or even reflect on it now, I hope you see not one person holding your heart, but the multitude of people in your life. Everyone you love deserves their place in your heart forever.

I'm not sure that much of that makes sense, but that's the best I came up with. Love you! 

over and out